uhh hey...i'm juss gonna talk about my DAY here...uhh if u two want to read about wat im THINKING...go here........ http://midnightvoid.blogspot.com ....YUP!. uhh 2 day was alrite..hung out with people..THE END. uhh lol on second thought i dont even feel like typing out wat i did 2 day!...haha 4 get. GOODNIGHT.
posted by Philip 9:33 PM

hahah.. hEy there... dOrk *AHEM* daYam.. you said you were gunna e~maiL me baCk.. BIA BIA!! hahah.. it's aLL gewD.. cause i got heLp from PhiLip! you chumP!! ;P hahah.. but imma bounCe.. bYe bYes
posted by Anonymous 1:33 AM

dO i have frienDs? are they reaLLy truE?! sOmetimes... i think to myseLf... are they using me? Like tonight... OH... what a bad night. I spent so much money.. i hate bein' the only persOn with the mOney.. cause if you buy something.. you HAVE to share it.. i mean.. i'm not greedy.. but heLL.. i'm kinda wantin' something in return... ya hearD? weRd. weLL... i went to the mOvies... it was "the score" i wanted to sit on the enD and "s" wouLdn't lemme.. so i toLd my brother..as a jOke.. cause she haS a cruSh on him..and i toLd her i was gunna teLL...and then she didn't mOve..so i toLd him..and he was like.. "hey.. hey gerL! can you mOve.. my sister wants to sit there." and i started laughing!! and then "s" got maD.. but i toLd her i was gunna do it..and then she was like.."i ain't gunna move" so i was like.. "fine.. i'LL sit here." then "J" came to me cause she thought i was mad, and then she sat in the seat next to mine. Then "S" got mad cause J moved to me... and then S moved 4 seats dOwn so that i cOuLd sit in the spOt that i wanted to... but i thought it was aLL a jOke..atLeaSt.. that's hOw i saw it..and in the beginning.. I KNOW THAT'S HOW SHE SAW IT TOO.. but then she had that sad/mad/angry faCe so then i was like.. fuCk it.. cause that is NO REASON to get maD over..and plus.. it was a jOke!! i was LauGhinG.. sO hOw could you not teLL? then i was like. ok.. whatever..so i was mad at her cause she ALWAYS does that.. then J was stuck in the middLe.. it was like this... there were 4 chairs. S was in the 1st, J was in the 2nd, i put my bags in the 3rd and i sat on the 4th one. Then J asked if she couLd sit where my bags were..so i moved them.. then s sat in chair 2, and j in chair 3 and iwas still in 4. That movie was so jaCked up..and i was so piSSed off during it.. i was re thinking what happened.. and uGh!! i juss wanted to stiCk her pOmpuS ass faCe on my fuCkin' shOe!! uGh! >_< i mean... i'm not maD.. but i hate it how she does that!! uGh!

sO yea.. we left the movie LikE... friggin' eaRly... cause i was faLLin' asleep... so yea.. we walked.. and then at gate 17... J's mom was there.. and they got a ride. sO yea..i juss walked home.. i wasnt in the mood for a riDe... I was thinking to myseLf.. that maybe i would see *NICK* but aw~weLL.. it ain't gunna happen..and i needa get over him... but dayam.. haven't ya'LL been like that before? oh yea.. you guys are normal.. weLL i dunnO what the heCk is up with you guys and writin yer pOems..so yea.. imma juss leave it at that. bye
posted by Anonymous 6:47 AM

heh...2 day i started a "journal"...good lord...i wrote about 4 1/2 pages already. And it was all practically on ONE subject. ARGH...but im in that mood...so wat the hell heres a poem...

Wat Do I Do

What do i do when i cant look in your eyes.
i turn away, in sadness and cry.
the night i held u in my arms and u told me how u felt.
i wipped ur tears held u and knelt.
i told u how i loved you.
and asked wat do i do?
But u could do nothing but stare with ur eyes so true.

Wat do i do when ive broken a heart.
did wat i thought was best, and said we should part.
I die everyday i see u with him.
but im no better than he...4 i have sinned.
ive done nothing but hurt u, 4 how could i win?

wat do i do when i must wear a mask.
a mask of happines and joy.
but i wear it 4 u so u wont worry.
ive hurt u too much! i wont STAND TO DO IT AGAIN!
but now u and me...are nothing but bestfreinds.

P.S. ...nicole..click edit on ur last blog...i fixed ur font...look how its done...so u can understand how to change ur color correctly.
posted by Philip 10:52 PM

OH MY GOSH!! i knew that sounded sO familiar~! heheh..awww.. whO are you cruShin' on these days phiLiOp?! aww... that's so sweet!! PhiLiOp has a cruSh!!! hahah.. me.. i don't have a cruSh.. i have a... a... fantAsy!! LOLz... n/m *AHEM* weLL yea.. i saw him tOday... now that i look him mOre cLoseLy..it's like i see the same shiRts every 3 days... hah... aw~weLL he stiLL looks gOod~ weLL actuaLLy.. hahah.. yannO what is so friggin' wronG!! i dOn't think he's aLL that KyOOte.. he has nice hair... ^_^ and hiS cLothes are pretty niCe.. cept for that whOLe styLe of him wearing sOcks and sandaLs.. to me.. that's a no nO... hhah... and Like.. he haS a g/f..so like.. i shouldn't even be likin' him.. i dunnO him.. i don't talk to him.. i know some of hiS frienDs... but stiLL..that isn't a reasOn for me to like him... daRn.. i dunnO what's wrong with me. i know for sure... that i like him.. but i have to clue why!! i am friggin' retardiO!! weLL imma eat some grub.. i'm on a diet!! hahah..so i'm eatin' like 1/3 or what i would normally eat.. that's good for me..right?! heheh.. weLL it better be.. imma be doing this for 4 months. Like whOa... if i don't get skinny.. i will friggin' beat up every persOn that has ever said anything about loosing weight.. hahah... yea yea~

weLL.. yea.. imma bouNCe.. i'll bLog later.. maybe..and p.S. phiLioP... if you didn't already know this.. nicoLe hardLy ever bLogs!! whY dO you think i was sO happY to see that you wanted to be in this thinG!! hahah.. cause we suCk..and if you dunnO what thE URL stands for.. "hama_house".. hahah.. in kOrean.. Hama means hippo.. so it's hippo hOuse.. heCk yea.. hahah.. ttyL~~ bYe bYe
posted by Anonymous 1:20 AM

I remeber when you fell in love
I could not believe
That it was not with me

I sent a prayer up above
And put my heart away
So that you could be free

And I know right now,
You're broken in two
But did you know my heart's been
Broken since the day I met you

B4-4 - endlessly...wow...this is like the 2nd boyband song that ive found that relates to me. Dang...well yah..juss wanted to say that.

P.S. NICOLE! BLOG MORE!

posted by Philip 10:04 PM

hahah... awww... what the heCk yO!! i ain't no staLker!! >_< Muhahah~~ atleast.. i hope i'm not! eh..it's not my fault he taLks LouD!! Muhahah~~ weLL yea.. i'm up in sChooL.. and i'm talkin' to phiLip..so imma bLog later..bye
posted by Anonymous 7:36 PM

OMG! lol i had a good day but first i gotta get to wat im laughing at!! ok first i come home and see that amanda says to read her blog cuz she says theres soemthing good in there (like happy stuff.)...LOL so i go and read it and all it says is that her "guy shes scopin" got in a fight with his girl!!...lol thats a good thing?!?!?!?! dayam GIRL!!! ur a stalker!!! hahaha SCARY! But yah...i had a pretty good day. Talked with people...haha and im better at "managing" my anger now...so know more sorrows from me 4awhile i hope...but yah..time to go..gotta go bust out the dumb bells! SPLAT.
posted by Philip 3:34 PM

hmmm... i dont like how all these colors look on our page.. so i dunnO if imma type in colors anymore.. i most likely will.. but yea.. hahah.... sO whassup with you guyS?! i'm so tireD right now.. i went to sleep late..and i woke up crying... don't ask.. cause i dont wanna re~write everything.. so juss read manino_pRiDe... if you wanan know.. i doubt you will... hah.. weLL yea...

nOw a days.. i'm on a striCt diet.. sO that with my lunCh mOney.. i'LL only use 1/2 of it..and save the other haLf.. and then in 3 weeks.. i can buy a new pair of jeans.. Muhahhah.... hMm.. i get paid in like 2 weeks.. or maybe 3... i'm nOt sure.. but imma start going down to their houses tOo~~ it takes 40 min. on bus to go down to one spot..then i gotta get off and transferr to another bus.. yannO how CONFUSING that is gunna be for me?! i mean.. GhEEzE!! i'd rather juss ride subway!~! so much more convinent! hah..

HmMm... weLL imma go eat some fruit for breakfast.. then imma go get ready for sChooL.. sO ttyL~~ oOh and PhiLip.. where is the reSt of your intErEstinG gOodies.. hahah... i like readin' yer bLogs nOw.. but i still needa add it to favOrites.. so yannO... write the webpage address down..aights?! ttyL~~ bYe bYe..
posted by Anonymous 1:42 PM

OK!! you guys HAVE to read my manino_pride blog!! it's gOod today! hahah.. nO mOre complaininG!
posted by Anonymous 1:35 AM

hAhAh~~ SHIT! i'm up in sChooL... it's bOrinG!! i'm doing biology shiet..andmy teacher isn'there..so i'm bLoggin'.. heheh... dayam OH shiet.. she's back.. g2g.. ttyL!! have fun today guyS!1 heheh...
posted by Anonymous 7:36 PM

heh...well i know everyone's sick of my depressive shit so i'll say happy stuff i guess. 2 day was ok. Stayed after school to watch a soccer game. I thought it was kinda boring...nobody there really to talk...and well i was pretty much friggin cold. welp thats enough.bye.
posted by Philip 7:07 PM

Dayam.. i know how you mean Philip. I'm sorry. =] dayam!! i thought everything was gOinG gOod.. i thought i could get up enough cOurage..and tOday.. i thought it was gunna be that day. And then he didn't shOw up for sChooL.. and what makes everything wOrSe... i juss fOunD out that he is gOing out with some. She's a 10th gRadEr.. juss like me!! I HATE MY LIFE!! whenever i like someone... they always get anohter persOn!! fuCk it!! i don't think i wiLL ever be gOin' out with nO One up in kOrea!! shiEt!! and mY hOme gerL in kOrea juss gOt herseLf a man.. weLL sOrta... cauSe she didn't say yea yet.. but shOot,.. if i waS her.. i would say yea.. cause they are sO KyOOte together.. hahah.. and they are bOth shOrt! *nO namEs nO namEs* but uGh!! i ain't ever gunna get a man!

i'm sOrry phiLip... cauSe you said you weren't askin' for aDviCe or nOthinG.. and you dOn't want heLp.. so i dunno what to teLL ya!! but remember.. i'm aLwayS here for ya when you need me!! hahah.. you too nicOLe.. i know you got guy probLems!! you better.. or eLse imma make you have them.. hah. i can't be the only one! hmmm.. i hope this fOnt color turns out to be GRAY cauSe that's the coLor i am feeling... duLL GRAY but i have to gO and eat dinner now.. bLaCk noodLes.. for the coLor of my heaRt... he's gOing out with someone.. i can't believe it.. i feel like i can juss die now....
posted by Anonymous 1:55 AM

damn...why is it that everyday no matter how bad i feel..no matter how much fun i have..at night when i talk to people, thats wat makes or brakes me. Damn..im having problems, and for stupid reasons. I care for the wrong people, I worry 4 those who i shouldnt...but why??...i wish..i wish..i didnt care. But i cant change that. i know that. Life is hard...i do wat i can to make others happy but try my best at the same time to stay true to myself in how i feel. But in the end i fall...again...i fall. Im not asking to be caught, im not asking for help. Juss 4 things to be back to the way they were. Happiness is nothing but a 5 minute word to me now. I havent felt a long lasting "happiness" in awhile. Heh..."every dog has his day"....have all mine been used up? Or do they not come 4 a long ass time?

P.S. ....heh...told u i'd make things interesting.
posted by Philip 10:33 PM

haha aww u two are so cute. When i clicked edit to see wat u messed up it was so funny..haha uhh but yah.... umm if u want like diff. colors go to....www.w3schools.com/html/html_colors.asp .... lol and the reason dark blue and grey dont work is cuz..its not DARK BLUE...its called "navy" haha and uhh its not grEy...its grAy...lol and uhh yah. And amanda click edit on my blog...if u notice i use numbers not words 4 my color. u'll understand wat i mean if u go the that website. And make sure if u put the NUMBER tag that u type it like "#33ccff" ya get me? oh well who cares...i'll blog later bout my day!! im not gonna let this blog be about nothing bout COLORS!! SHEESH! hahaha.

P.S. amanda...make sure to END the font tag...cuz when i checked out the blog u turned everything red cuz u 4 got to END the "font" tag haha uhh yup.


posted by Philip 4:02 PM

tHankS phiLip! i'm havin' fun with thiS!
hahah!! hMm... i maDe you a aDminiStratOr tOo!! juSS in caSe i fuk thiS thing uP! hahah.. aiGhts?! ttyL~~ bYe bYe

SHIET!! i have to take PSATs today!! wiSH ME LuCk!! >_<
posted by Anonymous 1:59 PM

mayan.. it wouldn't lemme do grey or dark blue!! PHILIP! help!! hahah... bye~~ =P maybe i will make you the administrator?? heheh
posted by Anonymous 5:28 AM

heheh.. i am writing in the same color as the food i am eating! Muhahah... well so far.. life sux... pSh.. read my maninoness if you wanna find out.. but let's BRIGHTEN our day.. with these bOLD coLorS.. Muhahah.. hahah NICOLE!! is this what you were tryin' to dO?! aw~weLL i guess aLL i have to say to you..is. YOU SUCK! heheh.. thankS phiLiP!! yer the beSt!! and nO i will not make you the aDminiStratOr.. cauSe if i did.. then yOu wouLd never haD tauGht me thiS!! heheheh!! how many colors are there all together?!
posted by Anonymous 5:26 AM

hAhAh..lemme see if i can dO thiS.. hMm... wait.. shiet.. lemme look at that e~maiL again!...

heheh... is this red? cause i told it to be!
posted by Anonymous 5:22 AM

understand the whole color things now???

SEE why i wanted u to make me an "administrator" now! haha sheesh..but its all good..u 2 are smart...u'll get the hang of it.
posted by Philip 5:26 PM

haha so ur wondering how i change color?? haha its easy...blogger is based on HTML...so in other words...to mess things around u use html tags to change stuff like 4 instance....say u want to make s word bold....u make it bold not by clicking that thing at the top (haha i know thats wat ur about to say amanda!)...u type....the command 4 bold then the end command...u get it??? uhh if u still not sure bout color juss ask me when im online...cuz i cant show it on this thingy....oh wait better yet...i'll e-mail u something.
posted by Philip 5:19 PM

hOw the heLL do you dO that coLor thinG?! uGh!
posted by Anonymous 2:00 AM

hi philip.. and nicole.. hahah... i'm bored..and i'm talkin' to you guyS..
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: YOU HAVE TO GO MORE OFTEN!!
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: ok..?!
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: cause imma add phiLip so it'll be more.. fun?! haha
LiLmOmO7: okie dokie
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: you better
LiLmOmO7: coolness
LiLmOmO7: threesome...that's always what i've wanted
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: LOL
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: heLL nO

that was a LiL somethinG something from nicOLe..and ..

Phily86: cuz i dont want to "intrude" yanno
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: hahah..she said ..
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: "threesome.. that's what i've always wanted"
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: hahah.
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: sO that's no intRuSiOn
Phily86: lol ur gross!
NaErOk8MiN4LyfE: she saiD it!

hahah... GhEEzE.. i ain't the freak here~

posted by Anonymous 2:00 AM

hi...i am here....love the color dont u? hahaha yah! well juss testing 4 now..dont worry i blog kinda alot...so its good reading! trust me! :P.
posted by Philip 1:59 AM

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